My confession

So I will admit it. Secretly I was hoping that Eve was right and she would get a baby sister. There are so many sweet little sets of sisters we see that it had made me feel like Eve would be missing out if she got a brother instead. Then I had to look at my reality... who was my best friend growing up?

Maybe it had something to do with being only 16 months apart but my brother was my partner in crime. Anyone want to "farm" Dad's newly planted bean patch, oh Andrew was game. I remember the hours and hours we spent playing. Sometimes I am sure he didn't like it, like the time we dressed him up as a girl... but I didn't do that alone. When it was just the two of us we always had a blast. Whether it was jumping around the living room furniture rocking out to We're Coming to America, or spending hours upon hours outside making mud pancakes.... those were the days.

I was also so protective of him. I remember when one of my friends thought she could boss him around on the playground... think again, that is my little brother. If anyone is going to boss him around that is going to be me. As I remember it there wasn't much bossing going around, but I am sure he probably would remember more bossing than me. He really was my very best friend. He is one of the most caring people I know. So after getting a little reality check I think I am okay that this baby is a boy. Eve will have fun with him I am sure.

Baby Roskam

So here is a picture of our little baby boy. We really didn't get good pictures, he was moving around so much the ultrasound tech was very frustrated.

And this baby makes 4!!!

So pretty much all of our family members know now. And of course there are the people that have seen me putting on my "winter" weight. There is no denying it there is a baby in there!! Eve is finally warming up to the idea. Of course there are the days when she wants to take back her wish to have a baby sister and wants to stay the baby forever. Overall I think she believes that the baby will come out the size of all the little sisters she has seen . . . an instant playmate. Hopefully she won't be too disappointed when she discovers that babies do a lot of crying and pooping before they grow big enough to actually play with.

I am adjusting to the idea pretty well, I think. I don't know what I am going to do when Eve is not the baby anymore. But I know that I loved (and still love) my siblings and feel that they really make my life better.

As we have been sitting around playing the waiting game Eve has said that there is a baby sister in my tummy, no baby brother. I think it is hilarious because one of her favorite people in the entire world is my brother, Andrew. Every night when she goes to bed she has to talk to me and remind me of the things that Andrew has done for her and tells me how much she loves and misses Andrew. To prepare her in case there is a baby brother in there I have explained to her that Andrew is my baby brother and maybe her baby brother could be as awesome as mine.

So some day in the middle of August another baby Roskam will be born. Since I am such a momma's girl, and I love the experience I had having Eve here we are making it work to stay here at least until after the baby is born. Ian is so good to me! Plus it just makes sense for now, there are so many jobs available here for the summertime and none of the jobs up north panned out so a job, even a seasonal job, is better than no job. And that means I get to craft with my mom! Stay tuned for pics of the adorable owl nursery we are working on!

And there will be lots of crafting since this baby is a boy!! Ian couldn't be happier... Eve will take some convincing.

Snow! Snow! Snow!

Last night it started snowing. It looked like we were going to get a bunch of snow by the morning but we only had a little more than an inch. Grandma Helen's deck makes a perfect winter wonderland playground. No dirt and plenty of snow to make a snowman. Eve was more interested in throwing snow at daddy but she helped roll the snowman's head. After Eve went in I had to give the snowman a little style. His tiny carrot nose and cracker eyes were not really doing it. We had fun this morning in the snow and as I write this just a few hours later the snow is almost gone. So, Eve and I are satisfied that we got to make a snowman this go around(it is her first one) even if it will be short lived.

Ian